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NERVOUS

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I am nervous.  I can admit that.  When I am about to try something new or take on a challenge, I get that way.  I don’t always feel that way, or if I do I usually get over it quick.  I hate to make big decisions in life when I know it may affect people around me and I truly care for who it may affect.  So what to do?

There is growth in me, and a few things I rather not touch.  When it comes to say my personal life, I try to sway away from certain feelings because it’s not developed yet.  I guess when things seems it’s going to get dirty, I like to stay blameless.  That goes for family, relationships and career wise.  When I do something I like to own it.  If I fail at something I choose to do, I own it.  I think I have grasped the technique of adapting and adapt very well as I may say.  I study people.  When you see me not smiling, I which I don’t normally do, I am in deep study mode.  I am reading body language, I am photographing you in angles, I am decoding your every structure and I am waiting.  It’s cool to wait, they do say having patience is a good trait to have.  Well trust me I wait and I wait.  So in that effect I get nervous and anxious.

Nervous because I know what I want to do but don’t know after what I do what will be the outcome.  But then I get anxious because I want to do it.  I like the mystery I like the challenge, I love action.  I live for action words.  I am very much a doers than a feeler.  Are you an action person or are you a feeling type of person?

So in a few weeks I am going to make some very big decisions and it might change my life from how it is going right now.  I have lived fearlessly through sacrificing things I love just to evolve from where I was.  This feelings reminds me of my younger self.  I always this obedient young lad living in Jamaica, until after a ton of nervous feelings and anxious thoughts, I decided to create an action.  I needed to change, I needed to be better, I need to learn myself more.

There are a few things I been needing to learn and set my focus on.  Some will say it’s too late to be learning these things, because they see age as a limit factor in their lives, I am ready to surpass a few limits I set before myself.  Change is necessary for growth.  I want to grow.

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TWO NEW: THINGS TO DO IN 2015

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So 2015 if here, mostly everyone is setting up their 2015 New Year’s Resolutions.  Most say the say thing each year, like, “lose weight, go to the gym more, get a job, move out, get of debt (hold up, that’s definitely mines), and relationship and love life constitutions.  For me, I have broken past the average and happily (when not thinking out my worries) is making bigger lifestyle change and learning new skills and consider my resolutions or whatever it is set out to do as Declarations as a part of a Doctrine.  It sounds official right?  Yup, I did this years ago after I made one my biggest lifestyle change which was in 2007/2008.  I no longer wanted to be a noob.

My Two New Things To Do

My two new things to do in 2015 is simply,

(1) Learn How To Speak French

(2) Learn How To Speak In Sign Language

Now trust me when I tell you I am like the busiest guy in the world when it comes to ideas and things to do and could do, but these are two things that I am very interested in learning, no matter the difficulty level and timing, but I am really here to challenge myself.

This to me is a lifetime goal and I do not at no point think I will master these two tasks but, I do know my limits and willing to work at it in steps until I am good in my understanding and execution of using them.

With that said, I have set my goals to be this.

I must learn at least 40 words/phrases in French.  Second, I must learn 20 – 40 words, expression and/phrases in Sign Language.

So there you have it.  So since I have now announced it to the world, I want you to hold me accountable for my goals for I need to pressure and reminder that this is something I want to do in my life as a whole and this is my beginner training wheels step of the gate.

Wish me my luck.  I really got my work cut out for me.

How I plan to accomplish this challenge is to practice daily if not every other day, as well as starting with 2-5 words at a time every week.  I will be replacing my words regular english common words with french words and sign language at work and in play with my friends so I can really put use to what it means to speak a different language to communicate.  I only know english and bit of Spanish, so I am in for some punishment.

If you know of any help or free tools, be sure to send it my way, thank you.

My thoughts and Behind The Scenes/Inside My Brain Processing…

The reason I chose to write post as “Two New” Things To Do is that I am a strong advocate for more action than words, crazy, figuring I am a writer and I believe strongly that words have a lot of value.  I think we do things, is action speaking louder than words.  Anyways, we all like to make list and tend to write too many things done on our lists.  More of the times we tend to never finish the list, completely.  We find easiest and more doable things and complete those, within all it’s struggle and leave a lot off.  So I decided to shorten the list, make it a challenge, implement it into my daily routine and sacrifice if necessary to accomplish my goal.  Those where the wording for “Two New Things” comes in play, as I imagine putting up my two finger symbolising for the peace sign, as I walk away for friends or family or whatever it is to go ahead and accomplish my goals.  It’s funny, that most people think the things I do is quite random and has no value, but silly them to know or realize I think everything I do though strategically and most of everything I do has an end goal and usually a double or triple meaning or analogy behind it.  I guess it’s really silly them.

As apart of being more transparent in my communication with the world, I am going to be starting to doing more of the deeper thoughts section to highlight my thinking and ideas to what I write and do in life.

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Leave a comment on your thoughts and opinion and feel free to share with me Two New Things you plan to do in 2015.

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HOW TO…

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I am trying to live up to the hype I created for myself years ago.  I am smart and knowledgeable and I want to help you, you the people, with some how to videos and blog posts.  It’s going to require a lot of time management and quality writing, but I need to show my talent off as well as entertain.

What would you like me, Richardo (RawMultimedia) educate you about?  Give me a few topics to write about to help you, no matter what it may be.

Signing out, it’s your Aesthete and Lifestyle Guru,
Richardo Wilson